May 2013
1 post
“Ate 2 meals in one sitting… Maybe because i’m sad… Food,...”
April 2013
1 post
Shhhh...
Everything is not the same and will never be.
Go south …
I’ll go north.
Hush… Its good bye.
Bid sunshine those thousand lies.
She’d moved on, no more asking “why?”
March 2013
4 posts
G. I.
Its hard… And in every fraction of a second, it is even hardest.
Seems like there is an invisible mesh… Doing its purpose… To protect…
Protect me from hurting.
One day i just woke up… Without the heavy burden.
Got into lots of thinking.
Decisions were made. Acceptance is the answer,
I still want to shed tears… But it seems like there’s none...
Sandari.
There you are. There YOU were…
Not too high; not too low…
but the DISTANCE..?
Billion light years.
Who would have thought that it is possible
to keep yourself from falling when you’re already deep down under..?
Who would have believed that even your shattered self can still be broken million times in one blow..?
Who would have thought those could be possible..?
Because...
“I WANT YOU HOME! I NEED YOU NOW BABE! IF ONLY DISTANCE COULD FUCK OFF! THIS...”
“I WANT REGRETS TO FEEL THIS: EXHAUSTION!!!!”
“I never wanted to stop coz i dont want to stop.”
“Its hard and getting harder… I need my time off… I need to be alone...”
January 2013
1 post
“I loved you when I couldnt love myself…”
December 2012
4 posts
16
16 wishes.
Even numbers…
Plain and simple.
But enough to give her happiness.
16 heartaches.
Even numbers…
Pins and needles.
But enough to tear her down.
16 people.
Even numbers…
Happy and sad.
Enough to love her or torn her real bad.
16 wishes.
16 heartaches.
16 people.
16 cycles.
16.
“Babe, you’re my august to november… And my november to forever <3”
ODE TO THE MAN I LOVE
You saw me through during those times i can’t even recognize myself.
You led the way when i’m starting to get lost.
You held me tight when i’m starting to doubt everything.
You embraced me during those times i’m down.
You kept up with my moodswings and accepted me even if you want to explode…
You’re always there during those times i needed you…
Babe,...
“BABE, YOU’RE MY 25TH; I’M YOUR 26TH AND 27TH IS OURS TO CELEBRATE....”
– Ako
November 2012
8 posts
Has been; have been; always been
I see you again and then i fall… We both know no matter how hard we try, we’re deeply attached to each other and the more we deny, the more others see the silent but loud feelings we tried hard to keep…
Its more painful than goodbye and its more complicated as each day passes by… But we know its plain and simple if we became true to ourselves
“You’re like a candy store making me wanting for more… :-*”
“U got me feeling single…
Making me want to fool around.”
“I have been homesick since you left… A 23 hour flight makes all the...”
Last call
Woke up coz of a phonecall… As usual, half awake and half asleep, i answered the call… He said “boss, alis na ako bukas..” i thought i was still dreaming… I said “i see, take care..” he heard the sleepy girl trying to make sense… He said, “go back to your sleep”
I said, “ok po…” then he said, “bye boss, love...
Not yet..
Everything seems to be running fast… Time, money, people… With whatever it is; for whatever apparent reason there is, all seems to be leading elsewhere… Somewhere i never planned and wanted to be in the first place… Seem like the harder i resist, the more it drags me deeper… There are many unanswered questions and unquestioned answers… I just want...
With babe
We will act as if tayo pa din. We will spend a day without minding anyone…no restrictions…no holding back… Tayo lang… Walang iba. It’s only for a day.. Yun yung wish ko, to spend a day with you..
I’ll love you for one more day… I wont think of anybody else but you…
Before you leave, i’ll give you a gift…not a material one… The...
October 2012
11 posts
“Happy birthday jomami !!! May God bless you for each and everyday of your...”
“Estong miss na miss na kita!!! Tang Ina!!!!”
paghilom
Alam niya na wala ng pupuntahan pag-uusap namin. He said, na ihahatid na niya ko and he asked me kung pwede niya kong yakapin for the last time. I agreed. He hugged me…napakahigpit ng yakap niya. His embrace was my home. His kiss was my happiness and for me, he was love… HE WAS. Nung niyakap nya ako, he kissed me on my forehead and sa pisngi ko. Then he hugged me again…halos hind ako makahinga....
definitely maybe
for sure it is not. and in the long run she lost her gut…
as thin as as trunk of a tree and as thick as a needle. That’s the probability of every chances they have. To further the analogy, him headed south and her headed north.
Opposite indeed. That’s the exact explanation.
It was enjoying; addicting but wrong.
Good times played in the dark and away from the eyes of the...
point of view of a killer
pull me up, twist me down; do everything you can to pull me down! hurt me and witness my hypocrisy. i never took the oath to kneel in front of you but i will do what you want me to do. I’m not going to complain nor you’ll never hear me cry. I’ll accept every mockery and i’ll let you feel how satisfied you are in killing me inside. i’ll let you wreck every alive piece...
random
its just a feeling…nothing more than a feeling. But dayum! the pins and needle pricks 10/10 .
“salamat po sa gift… :))) really appreciate it:)) I’ll take care of...”
September 2012
5 posts
“Solitary moment
In the realm of obscurity, I saw my downbeats.
At the saintly...”
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they say when bad meets good its the start of the beginning of an end… Some pessimistic may say, its nothing, some may say, “whatever” and some may say, “bliss already found them”
I was a strong believer of faith; of goodness; of being unsinful and I have this huge fear in GOD…
but now in church, not that i despise him, not that i’m angry with him,...
“I JUST WANNA GET LOST! DAMN!”
August 2012
7 posts
“ref photo for you posted on 11/08/2010… find it…you’ll see...”
si girl
they’re just talking…as usual, madaldal si girl…as usual matyagang nakikinig si guy… then nag vibrate cp ni girl…the text “pwede kita yakapin?”’
nanukso si girl…”di pwede”..kawawa si guy… tampururot si guty… “di talaga pwede… BLEH!” sabi pa ni girl…tapos kwentuhan ulit… para na namang mga...
he said, she said
then he said, “let’s eat babe…”
she said, “where?”
he said, “sa dati…”
she said, “hmm…namiss ko yun, di na ko kumain dun after the last time…”
he said, “nasa kin pa din yung picture…”
she smiled, “tagal na nun ah…’
he asked, “ba’t ala kong picture sa page mo?’
...
catharsis
Sabi ko nung una, ayoko na… Pero nasundan yung una, naging dalawa, naging tatlo hangang lima…
nag-usap na tayo di ba..? Sabi ko, yun na yung huli…pero ba’t kasi mahirap kalaban yung sarili..?
tama na…
please lang…
umalis ka na.
“Estong, ginugulo mo ang mundo ko…”
– sino nga ba si estong?
“BABAY NA, AALIS KA NA…BABAY NA SA ATING ALA-ALA”
babe
read this once: “possession is 9 points out of ten, and that remaining one point is the most important one”
i lost him and he lost me and in the long run, both of “us” lost the “we”…
he’s not MINE; I’M not HIS, but everything was sealed off by that sweet bitter goodbye kiss..
hugged him so tight.. and damn! that’s the last time i saw...
July 2012
9 posts
it started with a and ends in z
SAMSON and LAURA were over…
oras naman ni ESTONG at ADORACION…
“I want to try and live my life carrying all my memories. And if even if the...”
unexpected
so there they were…standing in the middle of the crowd after more than a year.. weird, it was all she’d been dreaming of but time changed everything and she wished that she was not there…
then its time to say goodbye…
an unexpected kiss came out of nowhere… she was amazed…she doesn’t want his kiss no more…
and its high time for her to say,...
Estong
Tungkol to kay Estong (syempre screen name niya…mahirap na eh..)
Sino nga ba si Estong? Well, tipikal syang lalake. Hindi pangit, hindi din naman sobrang gwapo..pero espesyal si Estong..Sobra (ngiti ako…)
Ano nga ba sakin si Estong? Siguro, kaibigan, confidante, someone whom i can laugh with ba…yung tipong masaya ako pag kasama siya..espesyal si Estong…
Mga sang taon ko...
The hidden meaning of ***(asterisk)
tracing the margin of his lips…
and then followed by sweet, tender kiss
in those solo moments for sure she’ll always miss…
there’s no better explaination as to why she love doing it than this:
she loves it..
that’s her (asterisk)
AFTER DEATH ( 1 year death anniv special)
their journey may have ended soon…but their love just started… maybe yes, maybe not…they were only separated by what we call “death”…but surely that lonely ending started something eternal… Their love started at “FOREVER”…Yes, Maybe that longing almost killed him…Yes, maybe that sadness almost made him INSANE… but now, he...
